Money Laundering

I tried out some money laundering... Didn't seem that useful though... Okay, that's actually the tail end of the story, let's start at the beginning.

I was paying a lot of attention on my attitude towards abundance, specifically as regards my cash flow. As such I process a lot of my anxiety about money or as it stands now the lack of extra income. I get barely enough evry month no matter how much my total expenses actually are. So if I actually need RM800 extra somehow or other I'd get the 800 ringgit. If I don't plan on buying anything at all for the month I'd actually earn my phone expenses plus 50 or so. So my monthly income is a yo-yo but I could see that I've some issues to settle.

In my efforts to solve my issues, I did a few rounds of tapping on cleaning up the prejudices that I have against money. You see, I always had this idea that money is something extranous and the right amount is just enough to survive on. This belief translates directly into my monthly income level and I really want to clear this particular block. I focused on letting the issue work itself out and later did a few cleaning sessions as I call it...

I guess all my work cleaning up my issues culminated in me losing my wallet as ironic as that sounds. I actually got my wallet back the very evening I posted it was missing.. I got it clean and fresh out of the washing machine. That's my money laundering experience... I literally got my money laundered.... It's nothing illegal but I have no wish to repeat it even if all my cash smells really nice after that.

Sekian terima kasih as we put at the end of a formal Malay language letter. It translates to umm.... Thank you, the end. Feel free to comment on my cleansing experience~~~

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My Wallet!!!

Aaa~ My wallet is missing.... I can't find it. I won't go so far as saying I lost it but it is confirmed missing... Anyway I searchefd for 2 hours this morning, will continue searching again when I'm home. Don't feel comfortable without my wallet but I dispersed most of my worry. I had a history of losing my wallets.... Have been extra careful with my wallet ever since I lost it 3 times in one year's time... It's too much a hassle having to replace my identity card, driver's license and bank cards... now there's also my debit card.. Oh I really hope my wallet is somewhere at home.

Morbid Curiosity

From the Wikipedia

Morbid curiosity

A morbid curiosity is a compulsion, fixed with excitement and fear, to know about macabre topics, such as death and horrible violence (see also: snuff film). In a milder form, however, this can be understood as a cathartic form of behavior or as something instinctive within humans. According to Aristotle, in his Poetics we even “enjoy contemplating the most precise images of things whose sight is painful to us”. (This aspect of our nature is often referred to as the 'Car Crash Syndrome' or 'Trainwreck Syndrome', derived from the notorious inability of passersby to ignore such accidents.)

This curiosity makes it a nightmare everytime there's an accident anywhere in KL or on any highways. It's so much more stressful when the accident happens on the opposite lane. not blocking any of the 3 lanes you're on...

Anyway I could confidently say I don't indulge in my morbid curiosities... at least on the road... I would look at an accident whenever I'm a passenger but I insist the driver should not slow down and if I'm the driver I won't even look directly. What I can see out of the corner of my eye and at most a glance, if the traffic really crawls, would be the most I'd get of any accident.

Lovely Day

A few things happened just now. The rain slowed down to a drizzle but suddenly power was cut off. Lightning arrestor kicking in. Having a double storey house on top a hill makes my house a lightning target. Anyway there was a distinct smell of ozone but I attributed it to the lightning but I was wrong. Found out that the simple surge protector I bought saved both my routers. Will get it again after this. Can't be too safe against lightning right.

That's one thing. The other thing right now is the weather. There's fog as far as I can see. My house is covered in it and the horizon is gone. It's almost 2 p.m! Wow. The last time it fogged any time here was more or less 7 or 8 years ago. Anyway there's never fog in the noon. It's too hot even if it rains.... Something is different maybe. I'm enjoying this. Air conditioned wind blowing into my room.... I sat a while at my window sill enjoying the cool air and the view outside. Saw two kingfishers took a perch on 2 different logs opposite my window almost at the same time. It's amazing. Too bad I don't have a camera or Id have taken some pictures. The kingfishers or raja udang as we know it stayed a bit cleaning their feathers. Raja udang means prawn king. Don't ask me where the name came by. I don't know.

Am enjoying this day. A most lovely day

Rain

I love rain. It's literally pouring here. Had strong winds for half an hour before the rain. High pitched whistling, things flying around the room and later windows slamming shut. I leaned at the window sill facing the wind to appreciate the full glory of the wind.

I think the trees would love this deluge. Since it's really hot and bright whenever it's now raining there'd be green patches all over the place a few days after this... It would be lovely.... Oh the flowers will bloom too. I'm doing a bit more this time. Taking pics as soon as the buds come out.

The only thing a bit off about all this is the fact that it's impossible to keep the windows open. The wind is coming from an angle that gets both my windows... Too bad about that. Well, in a few months time when the monsoon winds change direction I'll get to have open windows when it's pouring~~~

New Day

Today is a new day. A new moment that begins exactly now. The passing of time is irrelevant as I am always present in now. What went before has already gone, what comes after is yet to come.

But still.... the past is an extension of now... Now that has passed....

The future is another facet of now... Now that will be...

We are all in the now... Our existence is wrapped in a single ball where the future and past is a blur of mixed lines. All is in one place and yet all is apart... We change what we can in this little ball that we call life. We change what we can, we do what we want to and yet we are still in this ball...

Our life... Our world... Our existence

-Ahmad Hilmi-

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Lost in Translation

I keep reading silly things... like Mukhsin, the not so new new Malay movie, I would read it as mushkin. There are a few other words I habitually read silly. It's one part of my clumsiness... Oh... I actually said arrogant when I meant humble once. A case of saying the exact opposite of what I mean. I realised what I said when the "arrogant" guest I was introducing glared at me. Everyone took it as my poor attempt at a joke so it didn't turn sour.