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Monday, October 23, 2006

Bipolar

Well, rather than responding to hana's comment I'll just make a new post.

You want to know something. A bipolar disorder is not about feelings so you can't say "try not to layan sangat the feelings" or in english, don't brood. In medical science memang the only way is medication but alternative therapy like EFT and energy medicine can help. Solat and zikir helps too. It's not "feelings". It's not "thoughts". It's not simply brooding till you feel bad. You're feeling something without reason. You're feeling bad without reason. You're feeling happy or overjoyed at ridiculuous times and even over very very sad things. You're hyper for hours and suddenly turn blank and senseless like you got dipped in ice cold water.

Through energy methods I've learned you have blocks in your energy system, making the flow sluggish or even stop. Through EFT I've learned that it could even be that your energy system is reversed completely. The blockage coulbd be from your past experiences, memory, even cellular memory which is genetics and unexplainable inherited traits.

How do you overcome it? Not through faking it. You just smile and say "Oh i'm okay", "Nothing's wrong", "All's well that ends well". Do that and you'll get a very nice example of a classical Malay word that's been adopted by the English language. Amuk! You would literally run amok when it exceeds your limits. It's a malay word for sure and it's first observed here because we're taught to always not show our feelings to be polite. Not to express our thoughts and opinions as we should "listen to our betters", orang tua makan garam dulu yea?

So I would advise you to process your feelings. Look and see why you feel bad. What makes you feel bad. If you don't know why, if you're sure it's a manifestation of the darker side of your mind, then you need to process it through more fantastic methods. Energy work mostly works better than any other tried method. Breathing exercises focuses the mind when no focus could be found. A shower, a bath. Reduce the anxiety and anger level. Then process it through energy work. EFT works best for me. What is EFT? I'll explain later if I feel the urge to do so.

Okay, basic for those without any background in energy work. Zikr (that is chant) while thinking on the problem and thinking that "I'm still okay even if I don't know how to settle it". Don't think of a solution. Just think that you have the problem but you're still okay. You forgive yourself for having the problem. Rub the sides of your eyes, where you rub when you have a headache. Press both point of your eyebrows nearest your nose. Rub below your nose, above your lips. Clap your chest, make sure your hand touches your collarbone while doing it. And and with du'a, pray.

Okay that works to reduce unexplained thoughts and feelings. Try it and it would help.

Selamat Hari Raya~~~

Selamat Hari Raya to all here in Malaysia. Tomorrow's raya. For those in other places like my lil' sis in India, Selamat Hari Raya!! Your last raya abroad yea Hana. Take care okay and we all love you Hana

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Rythm

Hmm... Rythm. My niece loves when you play with her singing baby tunes and hearing zikr and nasyid. She'd bounce up and down and try to sing along sometimes =) Oh this is mostly "aaa aaaa aaaa", shrieks and shouts. Well she's only 8 months plus so what do you expect :)
Anyways I'm sort of in a good rythm nowadays. Still have problem sleeping at night but am better at waking up now. By better I mean actually waking up before 11 o'clock. Most days I even wake up before 10 now. Oh it's nothing big but still an improvement.
Been thinking of polarities. I've ignored my bipolar disorder for a couple of years now but I do notice that it's still very much present. Muted most of the time but there nonetheless. I'm focusing most of my self-EFT sessions on that particular issue then. It's something that gets in my way and I'd be happy to resolve this disturbing duality..

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Waaah

It's Aliveee! ~ Said Jim Carrey's style in Ace Ventura
Streamyx is online again. I just called at 3 something today and got a line almost 6 in the evening. Oh they said it's a problem statewide, as in the whole of Melaka and I've to just wait till I get a line. Huh, really that's tech support to you. But I'm thankful I got a line no matter how slow it is... It is much slower than usual actually.

Where is Jaring's broadband?? Launched in Klang Valley with supposed nationwide coverage coming soon..... I've yet to see any sign of it. Am going to Jaring's Anjung something next week and ask them when they'll offer broadband in Melaka.

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Ah.... A Quiz

Just typed mah name into this. Interesting result huh
As noted by a mummy though not The Mummy that can curse people, it's not 'a' but 'an'. That teaches you to actually read copied codes before posting hehe.



How to make an Ahmad Hilmi
Ingredients:

1 part success

1 part silliness

3 parts empathy
Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Add curiosity to taste! Do not overindulge!


Username:


Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com